Gold Eyes

Sometimes it is difficult to understand our dreams. I have had dreams where God speaks clearly and precisely. Everything unfolds exactly as the dream. Sometimes the Lord has spoken with symbols and color. Everything has meaning. Sometimes the meaning is clear and sometimes it is not.

Dream

I stood with my face before someone. I could not see the other person - only the hand. The hand took and painted my eye lids with gold. Not gold mascara but gold . The hand used a small brush and gently took a sheet of gold almost like a piece of paper, laid it on my eye lids, and used the brush to smooth the gold over my eyes. The hand then took and painted my lips red. I awoke at 2:30am and couldn't get back to sleep. The rest of the night I would toss and wake all the while remembering my dream.

According to my dream book Gold means: Gory or Wisdom: Truth; something precious; righteousness; . . .

Red Means: Passion; emotion; . . .

Update:

Last night I sat down with a friend/counselor. We spoke about many things and at one point I had a huge break through into an area in my life. I had insight that I had not had before. I wonder if this is what the Lord was telling me would happen?

Need for Healing

January 22, 2010

My family received some disturbing news from a group of people who had hurt us deeply. To us - it was one more jab. The sting of it penetrated to the core of my heart.All I could do was go to my prayer closet. I took my Bible and fell on my stomach thrusting my face into the carpet. Tears of a wounded soul flowed and I began to speak in my prayer language. It is amazing how the Holy Spirit comes to our rescue when we need it. When we cannot pray, the Spirit prays for us.

I cried over the situation and knew that I was pouring my heart out to the Father. After a while and mounds of tissues surrounding me, I heard a voice so clearly say, "Open you Bible." I use the One Year Bible and had not gotten to my reading for that day. I turned right to that particular day and then on to the New Testament part. The story was about Joseph and his brothers. Joseph had his brothers brought to him for stealing. It was a ploy on Joseph's part to get his father there. After his brothers were brought into a room Joseph's emotions began to swell. he said, "Get out! All of you!" (maybe not in those exact words)

I could just picture this moment - The Bible said that Joseph began to cry. There he was standing before his brothers - standing before those who had hurt him. I could really empathize with his pain. That is what had happened to us on this day. Our encounter was with those who had hurt us - but were also a part of our family (church family).

Joseph cried out - "I am Joseph!" Almost as if to say - "I am the one you hurt!!" When I read that I could only grab the tissues and pray more. After weeping for a moment longer and praying in the spirit, I continued reading.

Then Joseph said something that really spoke to me:

"Don't be angry with yourselves because this is the Lord's doing." - It really resonated with me. It was as if God were saying to me - "Don't me angry with them for this is God's doing."

I had to cry more and give my hurt and anger to the Lord. I then read on. Joseph gathered many donkeys that carried food and supplies for his brothers to have along the way and back. I pictured his words to them as they were leaving he shouted out, "And don't quarrel along the way!"

I laughed and cried all at the same time after reading that. It was as if God was telling me, "And don't quarrel along the way!"

The Lord comforted me that day. The Lord spoke to me that day. The Lord took my hurt, anger, and pain. God is good to speak to us through our prayer times. God is good to help.

Crises in the Jungle

This afternoon I was called to pray. I asked God to protect me with the blood of Christ. I then said, “I accept this task Lord.” Immediately I started praying in my prayer language as the Holy Spirit fell upon me. I saw an Indian man, who looked to of been in his thirties, paddling in a canoe down a river. The river was thin - not a large river that spreads out like a fishing river. This was something that ran through a thick forest or jungle. I could see the woods and the banks of the river on either side.


The Indian had straight black hair and he was tan in color. His hair was not long; it came to his neck or shorter. He was in a long wooden canoe paddling with all of his strength. I did not know what country he was in but I knew that I was seeing another place - another country.

The canoe was moving fast and the Indian kept looking back as if he were trying to get away from something or someone. He was breathing deep and I could sense and see his fear. I heard the Lord say, “He is mine.” I didn’t understand it all, I just kept on praying.

I began to ask God, “What is happening Lord? What do I need to pray for?”

God's Protection

After a while my prayer became more intense and the Indian in the canoe started to move faster on the water. I then saw a tribe coming out from the jungle or wooded area. They looked like they were from an African tribe. They carried long spears with very sharp points on the end. They ran scattered coming from all directions with several feet between each other. They thrust their spears at the Indian man in the canoe. I continued to pray with intensity. I understood that I was asking God to put a shield over him so that not one spear would penetrate him. All of the spears flew through the air, over him, and on top of him but not one struck his body.

He continued to move down the river in his canoe. I took in a deep breath, the tears stopped, and the prayer was over.

Thank you God for your protection!

Battle in the Darkness

Today a strange feeling came over me and I felt called into prayer. I just wanted to cry. I fell to my face feeling hurt for some reason. I immediately began speaking in my prayer language and immediately a vision began to unfold. It was strong and oppressive. I saw myself in a wooded area filled with darkness. There were about five or six creatures lurking in the background. They were large with four limbs. They stood as an adult and person would stand. They looked as if they had been charred or had come out of a fire. They were filled with ripples or knots on their whole entire body – almost deformed like or as if they were muscles bulging beneath their skin.

The largest of the creatures stood closer to me – angry – glaring – mad – mean – evil and filled with so much rage. I understood that it was a demonic spirit of rage. It was filled with rage toward me. I did not understand why.

An angel was trying to help me put my armor on. A helmet was placed upon my head. The breastplate was placed upon my chest and I also had armor placed on my legs and chins – down to my feet. While trying to finish putting the armor on I was suddenly attacked from behind and stabbed in the back. I could not see who stabbed me – only that it hurt very much. I fell to my knees and into the arms of an angel. The angels hurried to finish putting the armor on me.

I was then covered from all areas of my body. I felt sadness in the vision that someone would want to attack me. I was deeply hurt and understood that others were attacking me and that at that moment I was being attacked.

A group of angels were formed around me and I stood in the center of a large circle. The angels were some that I had not seen before. The warrior angels have always had wings and swords, the comforter angels have always been women without wings draped in long flowing garments, but these angels stood tall and lean without wings but held on to large spears. Their spears reached outward far into the opening to guard me. They stood together allowing no way anyone could come between them and get to me.

I could see the dark figures in the background glaring at me with such hate. The scene was intense and scary and I knew that any minute the dark figures wanted to pounce and storm the circle to get to me. As I continued praying in my prayer language I understood that I was calling upon the angel Michael to come to my aid. Michael suddenly rushed to my aid. He swept down from the heavens ready to attack. He was strong and mighty – fearless. He swept down and lingered in the air for just a moment above the demon’s head. Without any hesitation he raised a large club that looked to of been made of wood. He reared back with the club with all of his strength and hit the demon in the face as hard as he could causing it to stumble backward. The evil spirit did not try to fight; it simply turned around to walk away. As the dark creature turned the others turned as well and left. I then saw two faces of two women who I knew. One of them I had trusted and confided in. I felt the Lord revealing to me that the two women had been talking about me and the one I had trusted and confided in had stabbed me in the back.

Again, I cried giving my hurt to the Lord wondering why anyone would want to deliberately hurt me. I thanked God for protecting me and for coming to my rescue. I sat in the presence of the Lord and allowed him to comfort me. The Lord is good. He is quick to rescue and stop the enemy's attacks.

A Deeper Look

Yesterday morning I was awakened at 2:30am. Usually when that happens there is a stirring to go and pray. This time I woke from a dream and a loud voice saying, “Look past the baby to see the cross.” It is the same feeling and alertness you get when someone stands over you calling your name to wake up.

In the dream my eyes were focused upon an object. A tall glass cylinder – round on the top and flat on the bottom. It is something you would see when you place a candle in the center of it and cover the top with glass – a candle holder. On the outside of the globe was a painting of an angel standing behind the mother Mary holding baby Jesus. I could see it very clearly. However, I was a little confused when trying to find the cross.

I said in the dream, What Lord?”

Again, “Look past the baby to see the cross.” The Lord spoke boldly.

I took a deeper look and behold - there shining through the light was a perfect view of a cross. You see, the light shone through Mary – her upper body and lower body. It then stretched across where she held Jesus and behind her giving a clear picture of a cross. It took me taking a deeper look to see beyond the painted picture on the outer part of the globe and looking into the light to be able see the form of a cross.

Sometimes our vision is skewed and we need a different view or different perspective. What was God trying to say to me? So often we focus on the child. So often we focus on the little things. So often we see what we want to see. So often we see the traditional, the obvious, and what is known. It is only after, when we take a deeper look, that there is something more to the picture. There is something far greater. You see, the child is important, the birth was important, but we forget that in the end it was all about the cross.


For God to say to me, “Look past the baby to see the cross” looking past the obvious to focus on the cross and what the cross is all about – redemption, restoration, freedom, healing, an act of complete love for our sins.

So I gazed upon Mary holding Jesus in her arms and suddenly it turned to God holding a blood stained cross in his arms. Look past the baby to see the cross - then you'll see the real picture.

Battle in the Church

Vision:

My heart is aching and this morning I prayed for our church as well as the people in our church. Over the past two weeks I have come to understand that at least ten couples in our church are suffering and are thinking about separating or have already done so. My heart grieves for them. There is a spirit of division in our church among couples.
A few years back three of our young couples divorced. Something is going on in our church. Why would we have so much division among our relationships? We know that it does not come from God because he is not the author of that.

Today I fell on my face and prayed for the hurting women, struggling relationships, and deep seeded issues that need to come before the Lord.

As I prayed today I saw a dark cloud hovering over our church and community area. I asked God to come and remove that dark cloud. Suddenly the dark clouds began to be forced back – pushed back because of a strong light. The sky filled with brightness – brighter than the sun or any light. It moved the dark clouds away to reveal what was underneath them.


It was as if someone had removed a piece of clothing and the flesh was revealed. It was as if I were looking down from God’s eyes. I know that sounds strange – but as if I were in heaven looking down upon the earth seeing what perhaps God was seeing. I stared from the heavens at the whole scene.

What I saw shocked me, scared me, and concerned me. I saw the roof of our church removed and I could see every classroom – every nook and cranny – every corner. I saw demons in some of the rooms. I saw evil spirits lurking in the corners and hiding here and there.

As I prayed in the Spirit I asked God’s bright light to shine upon the area. It did – it shined so bright that the demons began to scatter. The spirits of division began to dissolve. It was as if the light was too strong for them and began to burn them and cause them to run away – like the legend of the vampires when faced with light. I heard screams because the light burned them.

I prayed for the warrior angel Michael to come with his band of angels, Gabriel came too and an army of angels followed after him. Hundreds and thousands of angels came. A large mass flew rapidly toward the church. The warriors came and they swept down releasing a great blow to the demons with their swords. They hit them as if playing Polo tossing them through the air and far away from the church. Some dissolved upon impact.

The angel Michael was large and strong – fearless. Holding his mighty sword, he flew down and landed on the ground facing the front doors of the church. He did not have to touch it and I was not sure if he said something or not but just at his presence the front door fell over with a great force landing on its back. I could hear the slam and see the dust rise from the floor on impact. The demons scattered and the angels gave chase. I could hear screams from a distance and wails. I watched as other angels flew through the church. Hundreds of them swept through every corner and crack releasing their fury on the demons causing them to fly through the air. Evil spirits began to take flight. God was cleaning the church.

I then saw the cross on the back wall of our sanctuary start to bleed. I cried even more. My heart ached and I doubled over from the sight. My eyes were swollen and I could hardly breathe. I saw the blood of Christ drip from the cross and then begin to flow more. It filled the baptistery and overflowed on to the stage area. It flowed in one long length – not a trickle but the flow was as long as one wall. It flowed over the stage, down the stairs and into the sanctuary. It flowed covering the entire floor area through the sanctuary and then throughout the entire church. The demons were gone, the evil spirits fled, and the angels stood guard outside the outer walls of the church.

I prayed for the conviction of the men in our church, I prayed for the healing of the women. Then God brought something to my attention. I understood that the pastor, as the head of the church, had opened the door to some demonic influence. He would have to renounce that – but because of that the demonic influence was present and attacking other couples and other men in the same way. Many more men were being attacked with similar issues. Many women were hurting from their husband’s choices. We were a broken church – but a church God wanted desperately to cleanse and bring out into the light - away from the darkness.

Each couple would have to come to God with their sins. The enemies grip was strong. He is doing a work. We must all join together to pray against it. I believe that a battle was one today but much work has yet to be done.

The Spirit of Lust

I laid my hands upon him while he slept and he had no idea that I was interceding on his behalf. My body shook and my hands trembled as the Spirit of the Lord moved through me. My lips moved rapidly and at times I jerked. I know it sounds strange but the Lord was definitely moving throughout. I cried and held tight to the tears so not to wake him. He moved and I slowed my speech though I was praying in my prayer language. Suddenly a vision unfolded.

The Lord revealed a strong hold in his life - something that had been there for a long while. I prayed as the creature appeared and seemed so very real to me. I could almost smell its stench and feel his wicked ways. The Spirit of Lust was its name. It stood tall and thin with its long rubbery arms extending outward flailing about almost like a water hose let loose.

Its limbs attached itself to all parts of the body - front and back. It extended its reach as if it were trying to grab hold of something. I believed that if it had found something it would have attached itself like a suction cup or wrapped itself around the object almost strangulating it.

The spirit had power. It was strong. It was real.

The Lord will be a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.

One day during my prayer time I prayed over my husband and my son. The Lord appeared standing in all of His great glory - shining brighter than the glow of the sun. Warmth around the glow enveloped me as the Lord unfolded the vision of these two precious people in my life.

It was during a time when I needed the Lord to take hold of them - lead them - guide them - and be that light for them. I saw them both kneel at the Lord's feet and bow their heads unto to him.

The lamp gave off a soft glow around their heads and I came to understand that day that no matter what happened to them - the Lord would continue to hold the lamp. If they chose to stay beneath the light - in the path of the light - near the light - then all would be well - if not then they would be lost in the vast space of darkness. The Lord spoke softly to me that day reminding me that if their steps were not too far away - they would still be able to find the light in the distance and find their way back home. They would be able to see the bright glow that would lead them back to him.

And so I pray - and I intercede on their behalf - and the Lord reminds me once again that He is there shining brighter than any other light and he is holding the lamp near the path of righteousness . . . he is holding the lamp near the path . . . he is holding the lamp that will lead them home. . . he is holding the light. . . He is the light.

The Baby

A well known intercessor once told me that the dreams, visions, and prayers will come in seasons. There will be a time when I may dream, pray, and have visions for a while and then the Lord will allow me to rest. I must say, I have seen the pattern and though I love being available for the Lord – I do welcome those needed rests.

Not every intercessor grieves through praying. The crying is sometimes unbearable as it may go on for hours. The battles can be intense, emotional, and overwhelming but the results are awesome to see and God’s amazing power is present and no words can describe what that feels like.

I have been having dreams lately involving a baby. I understand that baby can mean “new” something born again – new ministry –


The first dream I had involved the baby sitting in my lap at the piano and I was singing to it.

Next Dream:

I saw fire in the back ground, water had risen up to my thigh. I was standing in a living room. Someone gave me the baby that was sick. It had been throwing up. I took the baby in my hands while the fire blazed in the back ground and the water flowed around me. Suddenly I dipped the baby into the water as if to baptize it. I then woke up.

My husband told me that I needed to baptize the new ministry in the Holy Spirit (which was the fire) I will do that and continue to pray asking God to reveal to me the true meaning of what He is showing me.

A Movement of the Holy Spirit

The Lord moves in mysterious ways and today my eyes were opened to something fresh and new - something that had never happened to me before this moment.

I sat at my computer with hands typing away. I was writing. I had just finished listening to a tape about writing without editing or stopping while you write. I decided to give it a try. I sat down and started writing. I tried to allow my emotions of the story to take me where they wanted and needed to go. I tried to allow the writing to go where it needed to go. I was definitely in a writing zone.

Suddenly something happened. Something outside of my window had my attention. A beautiful aspen tree green and full from the rain we have been getting stands grand and glorious. I love having it near me when I write. If my window were down I could stretch out and grab hold of it.

A small bird landed on one of the branches closest to my window. It just sat there staring at me. I thought it strange and then another came and sat beside that one - right in a row. It too looked at me. I tried to continue writing but obviously I became distracted by the beauty of it all. Then a third bird came and sat beside that one. All three birds sat quietly perched on the same limb and sitting next to each other. They looked and peaked through the window. It was an odd feeling at first. I honestly thought they could see me.

I stopped and leaned toward the window to get a closer look. I could see everything about them. Their eyes, the feathers, the color - all so beautiful. And then the Lord brought to my attention the number three. Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ, and Father. I know it seems strange but I really sensed that I were in the presence of all three of them. A sweet stirring found its way inside my office. I could feel the presence so strongly.

Then with one big swoop the third bird that landed came up to my window and thrust it's wings out fluttering all the while. I gasped thinking he may hit the window but no - he stopped right before the glass and fluttered its wings with a mighty yet beautiful flow all the while appearing as if it were looking at me.

A strong emotion flowed over me and suddenly I found myself in prayer. It was as if the Holy spirit had shown up at my window! I prayed and as usual found myself praying in my prayer language on the floor - tears flowing.

Vision:

I saw myself at the computer writing. I saw the bird come forth and flutter up to the window. I saw the Holy Spirit pour over me and through my hands. I saw in the vision that the Lord was going to anoint my writing. I saw the Holy Spirit flow through my hands and outward to many areas and many places - even Internationally. I cried even more feeling the deep penetration of the Lord upon me.

I saw myself opening a large box. The box was filled with a book I had written. I didn't know if I were going to get published or if I self published. Either way - the Lord was going to bless my efforts and anoint my writing with His presence.

The prayer stopped. I took in a large breath. The tears stopped as if someone had turned the faucet off. The vision ended. I continued to lie before the Lord thanking Him and praising Him for using whatever I had to offer. I said, "May it be so, Lord - May it be so."

Scurry in the Walls

(Names have been changed - 7/08/09)

Tonight my husband and I met at someone’s house. I have been there many times before this moment. After sitting for a while, my stomach began to ache and rattle and my spirit became unsettled. I began taking deep breaths and then releasing hoping to settle my spirit. I caught myself rubbing my hands together – uneasy.

After a little time had passed, Jessie asked me what was wrong. He could see that I was uncomfortable. I couldn’t help it – I blurted out, “Something is wrong. Something is here in this house. Something is stirring my spirit, I can feel it.” I began to cry. I knew what I needed to do – go and pray.

My husband asked if I would like for him to take me home. I agreed. Upon entrance to the house, I rushed in to my bedroom, fell on my face, and immediately began to ask God to cleanse me and wash over me. I felt like I needed to brush something off of me or go and take a bath. It was a horrible feeling. It felt like things were crawling over me. I hated it.

I immediately began speaking in my prayer language and the tears came spilling out and pouring over. I asked God to cover me and put my armor on. I then saw the vision of what was happening. I can now understand what I am saying when I speak in my prayer language. This is what I understood.

Vision:

I was asking God to come and surround the house. At that moment a rushing wind rose up fierce like a strong hurricane. It came and surrounded the house. The trees looked as if they would blow over. The wind pulled the branches to their limit bending the trunk of the tree as well. Suddenly a strong and mighty angel – warrior – appeared in front of the front door. The door suddenly blew open with great force making a strong banging noise as if a heavy piece of steel had been dropped from the sky. Immediately a light appeared in the doorway creating the picture of a cross. It was brighter than the sun. The angel stood in the entrance of the doorway as well and the light protruded throughout the entire house.

Then two angels appeared inside the house. The wind continued to carry on outside of the home. I understood that there was a demon in the house and it was hiding. I then saw it running on the inside of the walls. It was small like a little lump. It was fast like a mouse scurrying here, there, and everywhere – hard to catch.

I continued to pray in my prayer language and cry even deeper. The angels were in the house looking at the wall but the demon would not manifest itself. After what seemed a long while of praying, I understood God asking me to go to the phone and call my husband who was still at the house. I was to have him ask Jessie if he has ever heard knocking or banging in his walls. I rose up and went to the phone. I even picked up the phone and started to dial. Out of fear, I then put it down and said to myself, “No – he will think I am crazy.”

I heard the Lord say to me, “Go to the word!” I grabbed my one-year Bible and went to today’s reading – Acts 26:1-32

Paul was pleading his case before King Agrippa because the Jewish leaders were accusing him of something and wanted him thrown in jail. Paul pleads his case and tells him about his adventure on the road to Damascus.

“About noon, Your Majesty, a light from heaven brighter than the sun shone down on me and my companions. We all fell down, and I heard a voice saying to me in Aramaic,

“Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me? It is hard for you to fight against my will.”
“‘Who are you, sir?” I asked”

“And the Lord replied, ‘I am Jesus, the one you are persecuting. Now, stand up! For I have appeared to you to appoint you as my servant and my witness. You are to tell the world about this experience and about other times I will appear to you. And I will protect you from both your own people and the Gentiles.”

So then Paul explains to the king that he was not “disobedient to that vision from heaven” he was trying to tell the world about it. I read on and this is what really got my attention –

“Suddenly, Festus shouted, “Paul, you are insane. Too much study has made you crazy!”

“But Paul replied, “I am not insane, Most Excellent Festus. I am speaking the sober truth.”

I had to go back and pray – this time I cried out to God for forgiveness because I did not do as he had asked me to do for fear that Jessie and my husband would think I was crazy. I also hesitate to tell others about my experiences because I feel they would think I was crazy. Paul stood firm in what he had seen and what he had heard. He obeyed the Lord by telling about his experience as well.

Suddenly the Lord drew me back into the vision – it was as if we had picked up where we had left off. I confessed and cried out to God that I would do whatever he asked me to do. I wanted to be like Paul.

I continued to speak in my prayer language and asked God to saturate the house with his Holy Spirit. I then saw water starting to seep in from the floor into the walls. The demon began to scurry and move around within the walls. I then vocally out loud said, “Whatever Jessie has brought into this house we renounce it in Jesus’ name! – Be Gone! Be removed!”

I said it about three times and then – I saw:

Movies – DVDs rise up from a bin or box he kept off to the right of the television fly up – hundreds of movies rose up and flew out of the house toward the sky. The strong wind that had surrounded the house carried them away. I continued to speak those words with authority – “Whatever Jessie has brought into this house we renounce it in Jesus’ name! Be Gone! May it be removed! May the Holy Spirit Saturate this house!” I saw things come forth from his computer as well – but not many things mostly movies. I did not know what kind of movies were flying out of the house – only that there were many – many DVDs. Suddenly something was sucked out of the wall and attached itself to a DVD – another and then another! There was more than one demon hiding in the walls! Movies kept pouring out from the bin and flying out of the ceiling of the house – tears flowed and my stomach ached – God was cleansing!

And then the demon that the angels stood over and waited for came rushing out of the wall and attached itself to one of the DVDs – it too was gone. Eventually no more movies or things from the computer left his house – it was all gone. The storm was over.

I sat and cried over the glorious power of the Lord. He is good. The angels stood in the living room and placed their hand upon Jessie – as if to comfort him or convict him. Jessie leaned over understanding the need to change.

May it be so Lord – may it be so.

Dream July 3, 2009

I awoke early remembering the dream in the detail and a deep burden sat on my heart. I knew I needed to pray. A part of me wanted to call but for now I will resist the urge to make the phone call until God tells me otherwise.

Dream:

I saw a very close friend of mine who lives in another state. At some point her husband called me on the phone to tell me that she was leaving him and they would be separating.

It was as a simple as that. I then woke up feeling an unrgency to pray for the two of them. I know that the dream can sometimes symbolize other people in your life. I thought it odd that it would be those two. They are happy as far as I know. I will make a call soon to see if everything is okay. In the meantime I have prayed and will continue to do so.

Excerpt from my Prayer Journal

4/15/08

While watching the morning news I perked up when someone quoted the great Franklin D Roosevelt - "There's nothing to fear but fear itself."

A commercial came on and I decided to turn the channel to another program. Upon stopping, I immediately heard another person on the television screen say, "There's nothing to fear but fear itself." Now having heard it twice, I perked up even more and leaned in asking God, "What is going on?"

I do not believe in coincidences. I began asking God the questions. I think God is preparing me for something. I will continue to remind myself that whatever it is - I will not fear- God will be with me.

The Long Horned Spirit

Sometimes when I fall upon my face I have no idea what might be revealed to me. One day as I was praying, the Lord revealed this image to me. It looked sad, depressed, and evil. I have no idea what it was or what it meant. I saw the rings around the horns and know that they must symbolize something - still I am not sure what that might be.

I Prayed

I continued to pray in my prayer language asking God to reveal to me what was going on. The Lord does not always reveal. Sometimes he just wants us to be willing to fall on our knees and intercede - without questions - without answers.

As I prayed the spirit moved farther away as others had done before. God understood. God knew. That's all that mattered.

Pest in the Night

The enemy certainly knows how to alarm us. Sometimes the moves are so predictable while others are not. Yesterday my husband had to travel out of town and stay over night. I am usually okay with that and often look forward to the time I can have in the house by myself - although I had one of my children here with me.

I settled down at 9:00pm - extremely tired and looking forward to rest. However as the night lingered on, I kept hearing noises. I know - it was probably in my mind right? I aways think so at first but then something started happening. Every time I eased into a deep sleep I was awakened by a loud noise. It was so loud that it startled me upon my wake. I would rise and listen carefully. Nothing.

12:00am - Loud noise - I rose and went and logged off my computer thinking the noise might have been from my mail alarm

2:00am - Another noise. I rose out of bed to walk around the house - nothing - yet I heard the loud bang.

3:00am - Startled from a dream I believe was coming from the Lord. The bang came from the Bathroom as if someone had dropped a shampoo bottle.

3:30am - At this time, I was terribly sleepy and all I wanted to do was to sleep - another bang from the bathroom area - startled I sat up and then fell back down closing my eyes to sleep.

Suddenly the moment my eyes closed it felt as if someone had taken a cattle prod and jammed it into the covers. I felt an electrical shock from the outside of the blankets. I really woke at that moment. My eyes flew open and my heart began to pound with great authority and fear. I froze - trying to discern what was happening. No more noises.

Then came the voice of the Lord - Scripture. I turned the light on and grabbed my One Year Bible. I turned to May 5th and read out loud from the Psalm.

Psalm 105

"1Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done."
"Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts. "
"Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice. "
"Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always."
"Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced, O descendants of Abraham his servant, O sons of Jacob, his chosen ones. "

"He is the LORD our God; his judgments are in all the earth."(7)

I began reading this aloud and proclaiming it over and over. I asked the Lord to come and sweep through my house releasing His authority on the ones tormenting. I demanded that in the name of the "Lord - who is our God" flee.

"He remembers his covenant forever, the word he commanded, for a thousand generations, the covenant he made with Abraham, the oath he swore to Isaac. "
"He confirmed it to Jacob as a decree, to Israel as an everlasting covenant: To you I will give the land of Canaan as the portion you will inherit."
"When they were but few in number, few indeed, and strangers in it, they wandered from nation to nation, from one kingdom to another."

"He allowed no one to oppress them; for their sake he rebuked kings:
"Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm." (vs 14)

Again I claimed that scripture and asked God to send his mightiest angels to stand guard and protect me and my son. I read it out loud - the Lord says . . . "Do not touch my anointed ones!"

I sat and praised - sang - to the Lord. I was so tired. I listened for a moment later and fell back to sleep with no more interruptions. The Lord is good and truly the light in any darkness.

Stretched Out Net

One day during my call to pray I had a vision of this creature. I know – it looks a little like something you would see in Jurassic Park! I understood during the intercession that I was praying against an evil spirit of some kind. It did not make sense to me until I read my Bile scripture for that day. There - the Lord brought it all together and helped me to make sense of it.

Psalm 140

For the choir director: A psalm of David.

"1 O Lord, rescue me from evil people. Protect me from those who are violent,
2 those who plot evil in their hearts and stir up trouble all day long.
3 Their tongues sting like a snake;the venom of a viper drips from their lips.
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4 O Lord, keep me out of the hands of the wicked. Protect me from those who are violent, for they are plotting against me. 5 The proud have set a trap to catch me;they have stretched out a net;they have placed traps all along the way.
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6 I said to the Lord, “You are my God!” Listen, O Lord, to my cries for mercy! 7 O Sovereign Lord, the strong one who rescued me, you protected me on the day of battle. 8 Lord, do not let evil people have their way. Do not let their evil schemes succeed, or they will become proud.
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9 Let my enemies be destroyed by the very evil they have planned for me. 10 Let burning coals fall down on their heads. Let them be thrown into the fire or into watery pits from which they can’t escape. 11 Don’t let liars prosper here in our land. Cause great disasters to fall on the violent. 12 But I know the Lord will help those they persecute; he will give justice to the poor. 13 Surely righteous people are praising your name; the godly will live in your presence."

Sometimes we come under attack. I found it so interesting that in verse 4 - 5 of the Psalm it spoke of setting a trap - they have "stretched out a net." This creature looked to of had tiny arms connected to a web. The creature stretched the web out a far as it could. As I prayed, I saw nothing but the wicked eyes and the large web that extended. The Spirit of the Lord came upon me and after a long while of prayer - the creature left - flew away - it was gone. The battle was over. The intercession was finished.

Spirit of Depression

We have all struggled with depression at some point in our lives. We have our ups and downs. We have had difficulty getting out of the pit. At times it can be a tedious task but somehow we work through it, the sun shines again, and we feel a sense of freedom. However, I understand that others have difficult balancing hormones, with chemicals in the brain, and past issues that keep us in that place of depression - therefore needing medication to help us work through it. But I never thought that there could be a spirit of depression. I never thought about a spirit depressing our minds, souls, and lives until revealed to me one particular day.

Called to Pray

Vision:

I cried as usual, spoke in my prayer language, and waited for the Lord to reveal to me what was happening. I began to see a crowd of people gathered in someone's home. I did not see any one particular person that I knew. I watched the gathering - still praying in my prayer language and somewhat tearful - suddenly a figure appeared through the crowd. At first sight my lips began to move more rapidly. I felt more of an urgency to pray. The evil spirit lingered in the back of the room by the wall as if to hide and stay away - yet it appeared strong. I continued - I cried even more - my body shivered and at times my stomach would jerk.

The figure stared right at me. I heard the Lord say, "It's the spirit of Depression." I prayed - allowing the Holy Spirit to do His work through me. After a while of intense prayer - the figure began to get smaller and smaller - and then it slowly exited through the back wall of the room where it had been standing. My tears suddenly came to a halt. It was over.

I quickly rose from the floor to go and draw what I had seen. Afterwards I stepped back and took a deep look at the drawing. A couple of things interested me -

1. The face was square - out of proportion




2. The eyes were slanted - I know that when suffering from depression it is difficult to view the world in a healthy way




3. It looked sad yet evil all at the same time

If the depression is from an attack from a spirit of depression, then the Lord revealed to me that day that there can be freedom from it. There can be victory - we can pray through it. We can find healing from it. It may be a difficult battle but it can happen. If you are suffering from depression you may want to think about gathering your most trusted intercessory prayer warriors to pray over you - anoint you with oil - and demand that in Jesus' name this spirit of depression flee. Declare victory - it's time - it's time to go to battle.

Flight to Safety

Sometimes the Lord calls us to pray at strange times. I remember cleaning - being right in the middle of vacuuming. I have learned that it can happen at any moment. As usual, I did not understand the urgency until I cried out and asked God to please reveal it to me.

Weeping and praying in my prayer language a vision began to unfold:

Vision:

I saw a very large plane of some kind. I did not know if it was from a huge airline or not. The tail end of it raised in the very back and along that on either side were two large areas that may have been motors or something. I wish I understood more about planes and how they worked. As the vision continued to unfold, I noticed that smoke started to seep out from one of the motors - only on one side of the plane. I then understood that the plane was in trouble. I prayed asking God to intervene and to please send them help. I understood that people were on the plane but I did not know how many or if it were a commercial airline.

Suddenly everything became more intense as the smoke now turned into fire and flames. A black streak ran behind the plane, fire fuming out from the side. I started to pray with more intensity. "Please help them Lord - send your angels to help them to safety." I cried.

Suddenly two large white clouds formed in the shape of angels. They were both identical - large in stature. With poise and grace they simultaneously swept underneath the wings of the plane and grabbing hold of it. The wings of the plane rested in their arms and the angels seemed to have been the guide. I prayed and prayed as the spirit of the Lord fell upon me - Tears flowed and I became in awe once again at the sight that was unfolding.

"Praise you Lord" I laughed in the spirit. The angels flew with the plane for sometime during the prayer and then at just the right moment very gently lowered it on the runway. Everyone was safe. They were safe.

The tears stopped as quickly as they came and I rested in the beauty of the Lord's goodness and greatness and came to a greater understanding of His love and care for others. Oh how we never see what takes place in the Spirit world and how often the Lord's hand is upon us. Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord!

Understanding Discernment

Sometimes our discernment's do not come easily nor are they at times very refreshing or reassuring. What do you do when you enter the presence of others and get the feeling something is wrong? How does one handle discerning that their may be an issue - - and it involve you?

Hummmm - that is such a tough place to be. I know that with myself, I need to evaluate whether or not my insecurities are kicking in. In the past I think I may have had some of that going on. Lately I have been able to pick up on things that seem to seep through from other people. The Lord's presence seems to fall and settle and in the stillness of the moment - something penetrates the air leaving an unsettling feeling.

I don't always know what to do with that. I usually stop and silently ask the Lord what is going on. Sometimes I can discern exactly what is happening while other times I am left with, "Something is wrong. Something is really wrong." - Not fully understanding everything. There are those friends I have found confidence in and am able to say to my friends, "Something is wrong - what is going on?" The Lord provides the moment and moves - tears swell, feelings unfold, and hearts are emptied. Prayer comes forth from it all and God does a mighty work. But what happens when you discern the "something is wrong" might have to do with you?

I recently found myself in the presence of an awkward moment; a feeling of something being wrong. I had no idea what that was - only that it happened in the presence of a close friend who radiated guilt. I looked deep in her eyes and wanted to say, "What is going on?" But the Lord kept me silent. I listened, I watched, and saw her fake demeanor come forth. I knew this person well enough to tell that she was not herself and definitely hiding something from me. I guess the heartache of it all was that I seemed to understand that it had something to do with me. I settled in that moment feeling as if she had been gossiping about me. I know - I can't explain it - and it is not a feeling I get very often. So - the question is, "What does anyone do with that discernment?"

I stepped away somewhat hurt and with an understanding that in my flesh I wanted to rise up and say something - but the spirit said, "No." So I will pray as God calls me to and wait upon Him to handle the situation. The Lord always knows better and He is always gracious enough to handle anything stirring.

The Angel of Darkness

My son and I grabbed our cups of coffee and headed toward the crowded sanctuary where everyone gathered during our Sunday school hour. We all gathered to watch the video series of the Purpose Driven Life. I stepped in the doorway and scoured the room to find the perfect spot. Of course my son and I straggled in as late comers. Spotting a few empty seats toward the back over in the far right side of our church, we settled in and focused on the video. I've never sat on that side of the church but felt drawn none-the-less.

Before sitting, I noticed a young man who looked to have been between the age of 18 - 22. Casually, he leaned across a few chairs. Dressed in black from head to toe and wearing black sunglasses, I realized that I had never seen him in our church before this moment. I didn't think anything of it until I heard rash and rude comments coming from him about the video on the screen. I looked around wondering if anyone else heard his very verbal thoughts. At one point his mocking became so loud that others in the church turned around and looked in our direction. They too were wondering what the chaos was all about. I sat still and peaceful right in front of him and then asked the Lord, "Who is this person Lord?" As if God had whispered so everyone could hear, I heard the words, "He is an angel of darkness." At first I just repeated the words and then suddenly it sank in, "He's an angel . . . . of what?" I know it sounds strange but at that moment something so powerful had been revealed to me and once I understood what the Lord had said, my heart began to beat rapidly and full of fear. I could hardly sit still. The Lord then said to me, "Don't be afraid Tina. I am here."

After church I shared with my husband what the Lord had revealed to me. Of course my husband was sceptical as usual. "There's no way Satan could be in our church," he said. I did not think it was Satan himself but felt that whoever this young man was, he belonged to Satan. The young man left before anyone could speak with him.

For the next month the young man would show up at our services at odd times and always leave before anyone could speak with him. Every time he entered the church, a spirit would move within me and I would literally become ill. My heart beat fast. I became anxious. I felt the urge to cry and to fall on my knees and pray. I gathered as many friends as I could and told them that something was wrong. Something was very wrong. There is a stranger in our church and he belongs to the enemy. He always came dressed in black and always wore his sunglasses while in church. He always came on foot and always left before anyone could speak to him.

One day a friend of mine and I decided to go to lunch. My husband said to me, "Now don't tell her about the man in the church." I'm sure he did not want her to think I had completely lost my mind. After our small talk she asked, "So - how are things? How is the church doing?" Of course she did not attend out church.

I couldn't help it - I began with, "Well a strange man has been visiting . . " She interrupted, "Wait - is he between the age of 18-22, has black hair, dresses in black, and wears black boots with silver buckles?"

Astonished I said, "Yes! How did you know!" Very few people knew what the Lord had revealed to me and she did not know any of them. "Well, I had a dream the other night and saw him in the dream. The Lord told me that Satan was going to your church." I then finished my story.

We both felt shocked and speechless and to the point of tears. We confessed we had goosebumps running through our bodies. We both thanked God. My husband had been telling me that I was crazy, and yet at that moment the Lord confirmed to me that what He had shared with me that day was the truth!

I knew whenever the young man was coming. I could see him walking to church in a vision. The Lord always let me know he was coming. Between services or during I would mouth to my friends, "He's coming. We need to pray." He always showed up a few minutes after that.

The Lord reveals for a reason - to go to battle - to pray through it - so that the enemy's plan can be stopped and the Lord's work can continue. I called a well known intercessor and asked him what we should do. He told me that God definitely revealed the enemy's move to enter our church and we needed to remove the enemy from our church . . .we would do that through prayer.

I called and gathered a hand full of prayer warriors and intercessors. I asked if we could meet at the church and pray throughout it anointing the doors with oil. They agreed. Unfortunately the day everyone could gather was a day I could not attend. They gathered anyway and prayed throughout the entire church.

The very next Sunday, on Halloween day, I received a vision from the Lord. I saw the young man coming. He was walking to the church. The Lord revealed to me that the enemy will no longer be able to enter with this person. The enemy will be stopped at the door . . . and he was. The young man entered without being dressed in black and for the very first time, he was not wearing his sunglasses. I didn't feel sick or anxious. His presence in the church did not disturb me because the enemy did not enter with him. That Sunday would be the very last time this young man came to our church. We never saw him again.