Need for Healing

January 22, 2010

My family received some disturbing news from a group of people who had hurt us deeply. To us - it was one more jab. The sting of it penetrated to the core of my heart.All I could do was go to my prayer closet. I took my Bible and fell on my stomach thrusting my face into the carpet. Tears of a wounded soul flowed and I began to speak in my prayer language. It is amazing how the Holy Spirit comes to our rescue when we need it. When we cannot pray, the Spirit prays for us.

I cried over the situation and knew that I was pouring my heart out to the Father. After a while and mounds of tissues surrounding me, I heard a voice so clearly say, "Open you Bible." I use the One Year Bible and had not gotten to my reading for that day. I turned right to that particular day and then on to the New Testament part. The story was about Joseph and his brothers. Joseph had his brothers brought to him for stealing. It was a ploy on Joseph's part to get his father there. After his brothers were brought into a room Joseph's emotions began to swell. he said, "Get out! All of you!" (maybe not in those exact words)

I could just picture this moment - The Bible said that Joseph began to cry. There he was standing before his brothers - standing before those who had hurt him. I could really empathize with his pain. That is what had happened to us on this day. Our encounter was with those who had hurt us - but were also a part of our family (church family).

Joseph cried out - "I am Joseph!" Almost as if to say - "I am the one you hurt!!" When I read that I could only grab the tissues and pray more. After weeping for a moment longer and praying in the spirit, I continued reading.

Then Joseph said something that really spoke to me:

"Don't be angry with yourselves because this is the Lord's doing." - It really resonated with me. It was as if God were saying to me - "Don't me angry with them for this is God's doing."

I had to cry more and give my hurt and anger to the Lord. I then read on. Joseph gathered many donkeys that carried food and supplies for his brothers to have along the way and back. I pictured his words to them as they were leaving he shouted out, "And don't quarrel along the way!"

I laughed and cried all at the same time after reading that. It was as if God was telling me, "And don't quarrel along the way!"

The Lord comforted me that day. The Lord spoke to me that day. The Lord took my hurt, anger, and pain. God is good to speak to us through our prayer times. God is good to help.