Wednesday, May 12, 2010

One Lost - Now Found

This morning as I worked on a Bible study I am writing I came to the lesson on Tamar. As I read through the scripture I came to the place where she was raped by her half brother. My heart stirred. Emotion swelled within and I started to pray in the Spirit. I had no idea what was happening just that my Spirit was stirred at that moment and the Lord called me into prayer.

I quickly fell on my face before the Lord - tears streaming down my cheeks. I said to the Lord, " I accept the task Lord. What is happening."

At first, pictures of women who I knew had been hurt in similar ways, shot before my eyes. My stomach hurt - ached - groaned. I doubled over from grief for the pain the women experienced. It was almost as if I could feel their pain - it was horrendous.

Then suddenly as I have seen before - a picture unfolded before my eyes - like a movie. As the picture became more visible my heart groaned even more and the tears flowed more rapidly. My lips began to move more rapidly. I usually know what I am praying about - but in this case the Lord did not reveal to me the words being spoken. I only saw it through the picture He was unfolding before my eyes.

I saw a secluded area. The grass was tall and thick. The wind blew west as I could see the blades on the grass flowing that way. I saw large rocks - maybe like you would see by a river or something but I did not see the water. There was an opening - like a clearing in a field. To the east and north there were trees - thick - like a forest. I saw the large grey rocks sticking out of the grassy field - I did not see a lot of rocks just some large ones scattered throughout the field. 

I then saw a man's legs and feet. I could see his heavy boots - like mountain boots or hiking boots. He wore blue jeans and I saw that in his right hand he carried a shot gun or a rifle of some sort and held it to his right side down by his right leg. He came upon the rock with the thick grass flowing against it. As I continued to pray it was as if the Lord opened my view to see even more. My stomach heaved and  my heart ached an ache that is indescribable  - and then I saw it - the skeleton of a young woman who I knew in my spirit had been raped and killed.  I cried even more over the thought of it - as if I knew her but I did not. I understood that God's heart hurt too - pain seeped.

Then my eyes turned toward the forest and the trees. I saw around a hundred people of all ages walk out from the trees into the clearing. They were all dressed in white robes. I didn't understand what was happening. It felt as if they were present when she was found. It was strange but glorious all at the same time - As if heaven were standing right there in the clearing with her.

The Lord did not reveal to me who she was or the details of what happened. I asked the Lord, "What do you want me to do Lord?" "Why are you showing me this?" I heard him say, "So that she will be found."

I then took in a deep breath and the tears suddenly stopped as if a water faucet had been turned off. My grief and ache in my heart ceased and I knew that the task was over - and that someone who had been missing for a while would be found.

Though painful - the family may have rest.

Hungry

Dream:

A man came upon another man sitting on the ground. The man sitting on the ground was selling food. All kinds of food. The one standing looked at the food and became very hungry for the food. He paid the man money to get the food. I then saw the man that bought the food sitting on the ground eating and gorging himself with the food. His arms were filled with food of all kind. After he had finished eating, the man who sold him the food told him that he owed him money. The man who bought the food was deceived by the other.

For the past week I have not been able to get this dream out of my mind. I have been praying about it and what I feel God is saying to me about the dream is that a man (possibly someone I know) is very hungry for something in his life. He has a great desire to have it. I understand that he will put money into it. The man he will deal with will deceive him - the end result will be it costing more money.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

New Birth


This morning I woke from a dream:


I sat and watched as a new puppy was being born. I held my hands out to catch it. Suddenly it turned from wet and slimy to fresh and white - standing on all four legs. I said, "I want this one." I knew in my heart that this one was the one.


Update:

Thursday morning I awoke with a voice calling my name - I woke up as if someone were towering over me. I then heard the Lord call out the name of a book. I realized that the book hasn't been written yet and that he was telling me that I should write it. I say book - really it is a Bible study.

I had been praying about what this group of women I am meeting with is supposed to look like - the Lord just revealed that to me. . . Thus the puppy (new birth - new beginning- new work) thus the color (pure - white - fresh)

So I begin.