Fueled by God

God is our fuel, energy, and the Great One who fills our every fiber with Himself. He is the one who gives us what we need to get from this place to that one. He is the one who fills us with what we need in order to become the person and disciple we need to be. I am realizing that we must never venture too far away from the pump and we must always understand what pump we need to be standing in front of.

A week or so ago I had a dream that I did not journal about. It really didn't make any sense to me at the time - until today. Now I completely understand what God was trying to say to me and I always feel like kicking myself for not paying more attention to those dreams that I may not fully understand.

Dream:

I saw myself standing at a pump getting gas. I was happy - content - unstressed and knew I was right where I needed to be. Suddenly a man driving a black pickup truck pulled up beside me and said, "You can't get fuel there. You need to go to the other pump. "

The next scene showed the man taking me to the other pump. I still held onto the gas handle and cord from the last pump. - meaning I was still connected to that pump. (still connected to God) I started following the man to the pump he said I needed to get gas from. We walked through one room - and then another - then around this corner and into another! Still not finding the gas pump. Again another room and out one building and into another! I remember saying to myself in the dream, "Where in the world are you taking me and where is the gas pump?" We never did find the gas pump he said I needed to pump from before I woke up.

I had been ministering to several women in our church for a month now. I prayed before entering into that and felt even while doing so that God was ever present and I was doing exactly what the Lord asked me to do. God was working and we could all see it and feel it.

Recently there was some resistance against my meeting with that group. I met with a man on Wednesday who basically said, "You can't pump there!" Or "That way" no you need to follow me and do it this way. "This is the path and the way to recovery." Of course I was offended and we never did come to an agreement that his way was the only way to recovery or way to minister to a group.

This morning as I was reading through my Bible the Lord reminded me of that dream. I realized right then that was what the Lord was trying to reveal to me. I understood by looking back on the dream that pickup truck means "work" or "personal ministry." The man who met with me had a personal ministry he was trying to point me to and through.

Black: means "sin - lacking - ignorance." (His black pick up truck)

I felt the man was lacking information into what our group was all about - even more so he was ignorant about how God could possibly have been working through this group I was facilitating. He should have spent time seeking the Lord First and allowing God to show him how he might be working through this ministry First before coming to his own conclusion of what was happening or going on.

I also felt he was pretty ignorant and lacking about who I really was - that God could possibly use me to minister to other women. He questioned my ability to do that not understanding that I have years of experiencing in doing just this as well as being a Board Certified Therapist as well as being a Certified Facilitator with the American Cancer Society and spending years working in Hospice as well as facilitating support groups, teaching Bible studies, as well as writing them and devotions.

The fact that I still held onto the gas pump meant I was still connected to the pump. Rather than following this man through all of these rooms - this way and that way - which ultimately caused some issues between us - I should have just stayed at the pump. I am learning to recognize those moments when I allow the flesh to take me down paths I shouldn't go.

The next day I found myself at work completely broken about all of this. I reached down to push the button on the elevator when my eyes caught this scripture that had been placed on the side.
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed." Proverbs 16:3
I smiled knowing that God was talking to me. If I continued to commit to God this work than it will succeed. So I shall press on with what God has called me to do remaining at the right pump - not being swayed - not being moved - always allowing the right fuel to lead and guide me.

Mudslide

Dream:

The dream started in a secret room of a house. The room was hidden to others. I somehow found it. In the room there sat an old dusty picture of a beautiful red rose. There were markings on the picture that told me that the picture was very valuable. As I stood and held on to the picture I reflected back on a friend showing me a picture identical to this that sold for several million dollars. I knew I had found something very precious.



The next scene went to my friend's house. I saw her home from a distance. She lived out in the country and in the mountains and really had no use for a swimming pool but on this day when I came upon the house she had a swimming pool built on the outside of her house.



As I entered the house with her she began telling me that she was waiting on a shield or some kind of canopy that would enclose the entire house because there was going to be a mudslide from the hill above her house. As I stood with her I could see the mudslide in my mind and I saw it come down from the hill with great force and flow over the top of her shield. The house would be protected.



I then woke up.



My interpretation from the dream book isn't always right but always look and I am always fascinated by the words that I find in the book that were related to my dream.





Dream Book:



House: Person or family: Individual or church. when naturally it means a dwelling place.


Swimming Pool - spiritual place or condition: church; home; family; God's blessings.


Mud: (Muddy road, path, or river); It directed me to see Highway, Ditch, and River. It wasn't a highway or ditch so I will go with river because of the mud slide.



River - Deep, wide, or Muddy River= Difficulty; Obstacle; impassible; incomprehensible.



Picture - Memory: Conscience; past experience; circumstance


Rose- Red Rose = Passion.



The friend that I saw struggling in the dream is going through quite a bit. I know that she is having difficulty getting through some experiences she had this past year. She has been very emotional about it - not knowing what to do with it all and how to handle it. I found it interesting that she built the swimming pool outside of her home off to the side.



Does the mudslide mean that she feels it is all about to come crashing down? She actually took precautions to order a covering for her house. He emotions and what she is going through is valuable in the Lord's eyes and to her. There is a lot of emotion (passion) concerning those memories that she kept hidden in the secret room.

Field of Mice

I awoke from a dream early this morning - emotion seeping from my body. The restless sleep stirred my spirit and stirred my heart. I don't fully understand it but know that in time God will reveal.

Dream:

My husband and I were getting ready to meet and have dinner with relatives. Upon our getting ready for them, we entered a large unfurnished room. I guess it could be called the living room area. I understood that we were in an apartment building that was connected to an old apartment building. We were in the new area. We were separated - meaning that the buildings were not related just joined together. There was a clear boundary between the two. At one point in the dream I felt as if we might have even been in another state or county that separated us - yet the buildings were joined together. However - in this particular room there was a large hole in the floor and mice were running from the old building into the new apartment complex.

We understood that the old building was infested with mice and some of the mice were getting through and running into our building. We ran after them trying to catch them. I could see the hole and it was rather large. I knew I needed to seal it and was thinking about how to do that when suddenly a baby mouse stumbled out of the hole and into the middle of the floor. I could

see it clearly and it barely had its eyes opened. At that moment I understood how quickly the mice were multiplying. I retrieved the broom and began to sweep it out of the room. I swept it into a dust pan and then placed it in the sink. I couldn't kill it. I just removed it from the area. I then went back into the living room area to see other mice run across the floor. I then woke up.

Dream Book:

Mice - Devourer: Curse; plague; timid (as in "Are you a mouse or a man?")

Broom - Cleaning or Witchcraft: clean house

Living Room - Revealed: Everyday or current affairs; that which manifest; truth exposed; without hypocrisy.

Sweeping - Cleaning: Repentance; (change as in "a sweeping change"); removing obstacles; rebuking evil doers. (Understanding the Dreams you Dream; Ira Milligan)

I know that God has called me into prayer to intercede for removing obstacles as well as rebuking evil doers. I know I need to pray. I understand that this may have something to do with our old church and our new church - completely separated yet still joined in some form. I also understand that many are coming from our old church into our new church. I also understand that since our church is becoming a place known for healing and recovery, the Lord will send those needing healing and recovery. Along with that = others will just show up. With that said - many will bring plagues, addictions, and demonic influences with them. It will be up to the Lord to reveal those things to us and to call upon intercessors to come in and pray against anything that may want to enter the church with those needing help. The battle continues but the Lord always reigns!